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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

It has been like almost a week since i last blog, probably during this period of time .... a lot of things keep revolving inside my mind... must be i thinking too much again... Watever the case, i just wanna be my usual self, and at the same time be happy..... For the entire week or so, i've been wandering a lot of things... be it good or bad..... and a lot of soul searching work done during this period , to find back my true self, probably i'm right abt myself, never give up till my last breath. A lot more to say abt it, it's all written in my letter... between u and me ...I'm glad that things didnt turn out to be as bad as i thought it might be ...Thanks...

Although school life is getting tougher and more stressful, life still goes on. I've learnt to take things within my strive and excel in as many areas as possible. Be an optimist and always look on the brighter side of life... If u were to ask me abt my life be it love life or sch life , i would most probably tell u tt nothing is impossible for as long as u believe in it ......So believe in urself and others... =) things will never be the same again, if u dare to try and have the courage to face it .

should get going wif my sch work, still rushing for project deadlines.. so i've got no choice but to end here for todae...Take care lots and miss ya pals...

4:44 AM
Craving your Blood...

Monday, May 15, 2006

Wah.... Finally i'm free!!! My parents are away to Shanghai for some religious visit purposes. Now my sister and I are left alone at home!!!! During this period, I should say it's gonna be hard on my sister lolx because she got to take care of me, and ensure my safety etc... She has to carry quite a huge responsibilty...Not to worry, i'll try my very best to take good care of myself, in any way. i'm already big enough to look after on my own, more to say about my daily needs.. Moreover, i've learnt to be more independent and mature in my thinking... so i should be handle most of the work such as basic household chores and even tidying up my room..Should i be happy or sad during this period... I think i gonna miss my parents a lot despite it's not our first time being home alone n that my father will be making his trip back next Tuesday. I realli hope my parents will enjoy their trip to Shanghai very much. Although,there's a slight delay in this trip due to some visa problem with my mom's taiwanese friend. She was here a few days, and supposedly together wif my parents, they were expected to take off on Saturday, but because my mom's friend didnt apply for Visa, they had to postponed their flights and caused them to pay Nevertheless, now tt i juz received a call from them at the airport, i more or less heaved a sigh of relief and in my heart now i'm feeling veri happy and excited for them...... Everyday has to stay out for dinner or not buy dinner back home coz mom is not around to cook dinner !!!! ... At least i can spend more time with my friends for dinner and chili out wif them and to those friends who abt to/ juz finished their Mid- Year Semester Exams... Its Party TiMe!!!! Hope to cya guys soon especially my frenz from kranji sec ..!!!!!! =) Miss u guys lots!!! you should know who u guys r , pls gather the rest and arrange a time to meet up. ..=) I think tt all for today and good lucks for ur exams tml and the last day on Wednesday... Lots of care n concerns... nIte!!!

8:43 AM
Craving your Blood...

Friday, May 12, 2006

Today, i went to K-box again. This is my fifth time in a month... hahax....Dunno why after i came back from my China ITP, i beginning to enjoy singing especially chinese love songs... Maybe because they are more meaningful and tt i can relate better to my current situation and express myself ..hahax... It was really veri fun and enjoyable. i experienced something new each time i visit K-box.. I ate a lot tibits/snacks today, keep on refilling like nobody business.. hahax.. In the end, i got a slight stomach ache... =X but now feeling much better... so not to worry... Finally, i realised tt... love is not abt being together, its abt the willingness to sacrfice. What matters most to me , is that she muz be happy, in return happiness will come to me... Juz dun think too much, it will only cause you having more headaches...

11:06 AM
Craving your Blood...

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Ohhh.... the weekend is juz around the corner.... Tml is Vesak Day !!! i really look forward to that day to come.... Its Buddha's birthday... =) hmmm... Still doing fine in school... more work n tests to come .... but at least i still got my weekends ..... hahaxx... Everything looks set to happen........ as sch exams are nearing to an end.... Although, i'm no longer in my sec sch life, still i miss it very much.... it reminds me of all the wonderful memories i had..... especially those days with her...Life is short, live life to the fullest!!!! My pt is cherish the ppl around u... and enjoy every moment.... even if it wun last forever... at least u still some beautiful and lovely memories to keep wif u..... Stay positive.. keep cool... and be patient in life......=)

6:20 AM
Craving your Blood...

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Another day has juz gone by, as usual got to attend school, nothing really interesting happened today, except tt i got to play accountpoly game, something like monopoly but its our School of business version to teach students on accounting concepts.. Had a great fun playing the game although didnt emerge as the top but most importantly i enjoyed the process of the game.. Supposedly, i was at the gym to exercise and train my body... but then when i was at SPGG then i realised i didnt bring my shorts .... hahaxx... now tt i remember i muz put it in my bag b4 i forget...... Dunno why these days in sch, i keep on thinking abt her, my mind is like evolving around her..... have this tendency to send her a msg... juz to ask abt her day.... Watever the case, juz hope tt it'll make her day... i guess she muz be busy with her revision to reply my msg ba... anyway gtg go liao take care nite!!!

8:56 AM
Craving your Blood...

Monday, May 08, 2006

It was a slacking day at school....Only three hours of lessons.. Luckily, no monday blues... Reached home around 2 plus 3pm... went on MSN and chatted with an old friends and her... After so many years , finally reunited.... and yahz muz be i got a very poor memory ...if not how come after so long then realised her existence no wonder ever since ive not seen her on MSN...All my fault, coz i totally forgotten abt adding her and my another friend... hai~~~~ at least its still not too late... haha ... and good thing is she's very forgiving and cheerful Hmm...Yupz.... there's one very important thing i overlooked and mistaken for... why am i so careless... i should have realised it long time ago... anyway i'll continue to try my best... and as to what i can do now is to wait........hope she'll get over it asap and really start anew in life.... Coz i really want her to be happy ...... =) that's all for today.. nite!

11:31 AM
Craving your Blood...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Its a fine Sunday. I went to watch a movie yesterday, "When a stranger calls". The movie overall is still quite ok.. Nothing really amazing abt that movie, but i find that the leading actress has a very sweet ,pleasant look. Apart from that, yup as usual, every weekend, i'll head down to town and chill with my friends... I think in the next few weeks will be more interesting because there are a lot of new movies coming up...got Poseidon, the Da Vinci Code etc.....Something to look forward.... I hope to catch all those movies once they are out in theatres.. Can't wait to watch Poseidon heex... Its a sunday, which means tml is the start of a brand new week. it also means that more workloads and headaches... Oh ya i still have a test as well... muz Study hard liao.... But still, i look forward to the next weekend.. coz i might be meeting her.....Yup As for now, i think i'm done for today ba... Gotta get down to my assignments... Good Nite!!! Sweet dreAms !!!! Slp tight !!!

8:52 AM
Craving your Blood...

Friday, May 05, 2006

Another day has just gone by.......Usually at this hour, i should be asleep... but then i stayed up throughout the night, one reason was because i wanted to research on my project.... the other reason i dun know whether was it because i'm still very troubled with a lot of things...Anyway why i decided to blog was not only because it keeps track of my daily activities and allows me to remember all the good and bad memories.. but it actually allows me to express my thoughts and feelings which in the past i usually keep it to myself. Through blogging, i think i can relieve my mind better and make me focus and concentrate on what's ahead of me ... Hai~~ Although, i've changed a lot... but inside me my emotions still remain unchanged... No matter how independent and mature i am , on the surface i may look like nothing has happened but deep inside my heart , my emotions can kill me...... There were times, i thought of committing suicides because i used to a very introvert person, and what i could do was to cry underneath my pillow... and it seem like no one around me seriously understand how i feel deep inside.... I think that's the reason why i love music and arts very much. Especially when i'm very down, i'd either listen to music, sing to myself or dance to express my emotions and through all this, i can make myself feel better...so usually i express my feelings and thoughts through music...Probably that is why Music plays such an important role in my life.... Music is my life , My life is music... One day without music , is as good as the end of the world... Why am i so miserable.... ??? What's the cause of my misery??? Probably i shouldnt expect too much in life.. coz the more i expect... the deeper i hurt myself inside...But i just cant resist myself to stop thinking of you...everywhere i go, i can always feel ur presence...Maybe now then i understand the meaning of true love ba..... the taste of loving someone... In the past few relationships, seriously i think i'm useless... reason being i didnt put in my 100% into my relationships... probably u would say tt i was still too young back then to even appreciate what love is all abt ? After so long, then i realised that what i had done in the past were all craps... Is it too late for me to save the relationship ??? Should we juz remain as friends or maybe there are still some hope as long as i dun give up.(hopefully).....Loving someone means willing to sacrifice for him/her even if it takes one's life at stake...As long as she's happy, i should be happy for her.... Juz wanna let u know that whether or not we are together, doesnt really matter to me anymore... More importantly, is that u muz be happy. so whenever u r not feeling good/i sense that u r not unhappy,i will be sad with u as well..... so dun worry i'll always to be behind u. If we are meant to be for each other, i think no one can stop u ...Even if its a one-side love, u will always be remembered in my heart deeply and bear in my mind that , if u need someone to talk to, or any help or a shoulder to lean on. i'll always be there for u .... =) Love is so magical and precious juz like u ...and i hope tt my love for u will flow endlessly like a river .....coz u stand an important part of me.....i'll be right here waiting for u....... good nite sweet dreams... miss ya.............

10:55 AM
Craving your Blood...

The weekends are finally here...!!! Hooray!! Time to enjoy and relax... Life is getting more and more hectic and busy as weeks gone by.... Workloads are pilling up like crazy....Lots of project deadlines and tests coming up.... But still manageable.... Everything looks fine.. as we move on... Not much of a headache at the moment... expect for my love life ba.. Nevertheless, i've learnt to take it easy and within my strives.... I have faith in myself that one day i'll make it far... But what matters most now is to enjoy my weekends and cant wait for the election day to arrive and the results show which is taking place tml night....Hope to see some suprising outcomes in tml's election day... For those who are casting their votes tml, pls make a wise choice and follow ur heart.... =) Ohhh ya... before i forget,for those who are having their exams...All the best in ur exams... and may u pass with flying colours Study hard Jia You..!!!!!!

5:15 AM
Craving your Blood...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

What a tiring day to end my school!!!! My class started at 9am and ended around 3pm..Good thing was tt we ended slightly earlier than usual,which allowed me to go back home and take a short nap b4 dinner time. During my Integrated Accounting Practice (IAP) class,we had to start working on my final year project. Only till today then i realised my KOB draft report was incomplete and not as expected as what was stated in the assignment sheets. Nevertheless, We still got exactly one week for us to complete the draft report before the deadline next week. On the other hand, i had a misunderstanding with one of my groupmates, probably i was at fault. however at the end of day, it didnt seem to look as bad as i thought it might be ... it must be my unlucky day coz today is actually her birthday!!!!!!! i sincerely apologised to ya... and hope everything will be fine..... As for the rest of you out there, muz try to remb. all ur loved ones' birthdays... dun end up like me .... who keeps forgetting my frens as well as my loved one birthdays ... but anyway I had already learnt my lesson and i 'll try my very best to remb. my frens ' birthdays especially tt special someone........................ tc lots good nite sweet dreams.. tata..

8:01 AM
Craving your Blood...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

After a busy day at school, which i had to attend briefing on Account Poly Game and present my Industrial Training Programme project. A group of my itp friends, we went to K-box at Cineleisure to enjoy and relax for the rest of the afternoon.. I had a great time singing and moving to the tunes... It was our 3rd time ever since we came back from our China ITP!!! So far this is my 4th time in a month, i actually went to K-box, and It has broken my record!!! amazing stuff sia... Thanks to you guys!!!!! During the K-box session, i sung quite a few new songs. which i had never attempted b4... and there were quite a few that brought back some of my past memories which involved my ex... i enjoy singing a lot and each time i sing a particular song, it gives me a different feeling....When it comes to singing, i usually bring in a lot of my emotions and thoughts into the songs.... probably u're right, i'm a very expressive & sentimental guy..We sung still quite late from abt 6 to 9 plus pm b4 we head back home.... I hope to visit K-box more often especially with my loved one...

10:17 AM
Craving your Blood...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Time flies...I'm already in my final year of poly. education. Compare myself with last year , i seem to have changed quite a bit... probably, time really do change one.. and what i hope for and desire about have totally changed my life. Now,I begin to realise what i have actually missed over the past two to three years and a lot of things about myself in the past, have annoyed me. Nevertheless, life still goes on, let beyones be beyones.. Now that i know what i want to acheive in life, i should focus on it and let not my past affect my future...

After my Industrial Training Programme, in Shanghai, China, i've learnt to be more independent and self-conscious about my work and lifestyle. I've actually set higher expectations of myself which are to be acheived at the end of my final year in poly. On top of that, i do have some unrealised dreams which i hope to fufill in times to come. Maybe one day i should isolate myself in my room and seriously plan on how am i suppose to acheive my targets and hopefully realise my dreams...

Only after i've done so, then i could consider myself as finally grown up....In reality, i still got a long way to go... and there are still plenty of things for me to explore, learn and discover, so don't give up hopes and dreams... Always look on the bright side of life.... Life may seem to be complicated, but actually what makes life so complicating is human beings ourselves .....!!!! :@ Cheers !!!

8:11 PM
Craving your Blood...