My Gothic World
We gaze at crimson skies
beneath the chilling stillness
as darkness descends,
seeping silently into the cracks
the earth crumbles
beneath the weight of emptiness
and everything slowly fades away
quietly deteriorating
rotting into oblivion
but yet, we stand amidst the desolation,
awash in effulgent light
as you scream in ecstasy
and i fall to my knees
to deplore the angelic death
intoxicated with its splendor,
we tremble in the arms of sorrow
and lethargically waste away
Friday, May 05, 2006
Another day has just gone by.......Usually at this hour, i should be asleep... but then i stayed up throughout the night, one reason was because i wanted to research on my project.... the other reason i dun know whether was it because i'm still very troubled with a lot of things...Anyway why i decided to blog was not only because it keeps track of my daily activities and allows me to remember all the good and bad memories.. but it actually allows me to express my thoughts and feelings which in the past i usually keep it to myself. Through blogging, i think i can relieve my mind better and make me focus and concentrate on what's ahead of me ... Hai~~ Although, i've changed a lot... but inside me my emotions still remain unchanged... No matter how independent and mature i am , on the surface i may look like nothing has happened but deep inside my heart , my emotions can kill me...... There were times, i thought of committing suicides because i used to a very introvert person, and what i could do was to cry underneath my pillow... and it seem like no one around me seriously understand how i feel deep inside.... I think that's the reason why i love music and arts very much. Especially when i'm very down, i'd either listen to music, sing to myself or dance to express my emotions and through all this, i can make myself feel better...so usually i express my feelings and thoughts through music...Probably that is why Music plays such an important role in my life.... Music is my life , My life is music... One day without music , is as good as the end of the world... Why am i so miserable.... ??? What's the cause of my misery??? Probably i shouldnt expect too much in life.. coz the more i expect... the deeper i hurt myself inside...But i just cant resist myself to stop thinking of you...everywhere i go, i can always feel ur presence...Maybe now then i understand the meaning of true love ba..... the taste of loving someone... In the past few relationships, seriously i think i'm useless... reason being i didnt put in my 100% into my relationships... probably u would say tt i was still too young back then to even appreciate what love is all abt ? After so long, then i realised that what i had done in the past were all craps... Is it too late for me to save the relationship ??? Should we juz remain as friends or maybe there are still some hope as long as i dun give up.(hopefully).....Loving someone means willing to sacrifice for him/her even if it takes one's life at stake...As long as she's happy, i should be happy for her.... Juz wanna let u know that whether or not we are together, doesnt really matter to me anymore... More importantly, is that u muz be happy. so whenever u r not feeling good/i sense that u r not unhappy,i will be sad with u as well..... so dun worry i'll always to be behind u. If we are meant to be for each other, i think no one can stop u ...Even if its a one-side love, u will always be remembered in my heart deeply and bear in my mind that , if u need someone to talk to, or any help or a shoulder to lean on. i'll always be there for u .... =) Love is so magical and precious juz like u ...and i hope tt my love for u will flow endlessly like a river .....coz u stand an important part of me.....i'll be right here waiting for u....... good nite sweet dreams... miss ya.............
10:55 AM
Craving your Blood...
Tell
The
World
Abt
Thy
Twisted
Self
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Do
What You are Best +
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Never Say Die....
Archangel is the ray of light
